As I sit here and pour out my heart in writing, there are plenty of emotions running through me. On a day to day basis we are so hell bent on marking the “next thing” off our list. When I began taking my prerequisites for my nursing career, I took on a full load. It was my first time as a college student and although I LOVE writing papers I failed my first semester.
Why did I fail if I am so passionate about it? Simple. I didn’t’ have a schedule. I didn’t make time-enough time to read then go back and quiz myself. There was no family guidance since I was the first to attend college. My lack of knowledge and unwillingness to seek help when needed caused me to bomb my class with a 70 as my cumulative grade. –Oh the pain. Honestly, I felt as total crap and an absolute failure. Little did I know, this would be an emotion I would carry with me practically through my entire nursing program.
What caused success? I made TIME to read. As soon as the scheduled assignments hit my course, I would jot them down and categorize how I could tackle them 2 weeks prior. This particular method caused me from drowning in all courses.
What I didn’t know is that it wouldn’t be enough to carry with me after graduating. My eyes have always been on the prize and when I failed, I took it hard. They were all lessons, molding me to become a better individual-a better nurse. People call me crazy,” How on earth can you pick up ANOTHER book to read? I’m so over reading, we’ve been doing that the entire time we were in school.” It’s simple again. I am eager. Eager to learn from my mistakes, how to make better choices, and ultimately, I recognize that we will forever be learning in the healthcare field.
So the real deal is if you’re reading this and struggling:
-Go back to your basics. Work your way up from there.
-Break it down into categories and test yourself.
-“Make it Stick” was a book I read about 8 months ago that helped me recognize how important quizzing yourself rather than just going back to review notations helps tremendously with your memory recall. It is painful-time consuming, but well worth it.
-Once you have broken it down into categories and quizzed yourself assess your weakness and highlight those.
I had to learn that even though I got an answer correct the first time, I needed to verify whether I was on the right track in the first place, therefore, I would read a rationale or research it.
All in all, it’s important to remember that this too shall pass. You used to think you weren’t going to make it out of that semester, then you did. You thought you weren’t going to graduate, but then you did. You had bumps in the road, but if failure didn’t exist we wouldn’t recognize how much hard work we have put into making our journeys worth it.